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Creating Yourself

This was me a little over 2 years ago. This is me unhappy (can’t you tell by my face??). This is me at my heaviest. This is me thinking that I was being healthy by eating Lean Pocket Pizza pockets daily, no veggies, chugging Diet DP like it WAS water, lifting weights (if you even want to call it that) once a week, and frolicking on the elliptical if and when I felt like doing cardio.

  

My already double digit jeans were tttiiiiigggghhhtttt and begging me for an even bigger size. My cheeks looked like I was playing chubby bunny all day. I tried Hydroxy cut for a while (mom, don’t be mad) and was disappointed when I popped those pills day after day, didn‘t change my habits, and STILL didn’t see any results and I was mystified (insert sarcasm here). I even went through a phase (while working night shift) where I didn’t eat hardly anything. I drank NO water, ate 2 toaster strudels for dinner, and 1 tortilla or granola bar while I worked. Did I lose weight? Yes but I felt terrible, I was irritable, my skin was a grease pit, I had no energy, and I was soft. It didn’t’ matter that I was a few pounds lighter, I was hating myself. I hated that since I was am an athlete, specifically a weight lifter, that I just stopped caring. I used to write people diet plans and got a degree in Nutritional Science from Texas A&M for heaven’s sake and I should KNOW better! I KNEW better but I let my job be my excuse. I let stress get to me in all of the wrong ways. I even let myself think,”Well, I’m married and we plan to have kids so I will get big anyways.” Who thinks like that???? Sound familiar to anyone out there? Stress, marriage, job?

It was February 2 years ago when I saw an Oxygen magazine with yet another ridiculously chiseled woman on the front making me want to chug my Diet DP and eat my woes away even more. I opened it and started reading and found an article from Tosca Reno. She’s a 50 something BEAUTY with a body that I would kill for NOW. I read through her own personal story and her eating clean philosophy and that is when I made my decision. I decided for myself that I wanted to be better for my family, for my future children, for my husband, but most of all, for ME. It was then that I decided to create myself. I bought almost all of Tosca’s The Eat Clean Diet cookbooks, I stopped drinking Diet DP, I subscribed to Oxygen magazine, I cleaned out my pantry and got rid of processed foods (small tear when I threw away my box of frozen Lean Pocket pizza pockets), and I started a food journal on my phone that I emailed to my MOTHER at the end of every day. She became my accountability partner. I knew my husband wouldn’t care if I told him that I ate a handful of Sour Patch kids but if I had to tell my mother that?????!!!! Knowing that I had to email my mom at the end of the day, stopped me from eating many a cupcake and pizza! For 6 months, I emailed my mom at the end of every day detailing what I had eaten for the day, how much water I had drank, and what I did for exercise. In just 6 months, I lost almost 20 lbs. (You can see my most recent progress pictures on my facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/BeAFitFox)

Since then, I’ve found BodyRock (gotta love 12 minute workouts!), I’ve completed 2 half marathons and am now training for my 3rd, I prep my meals for the week on Sundays, I’m the crazy lady getting on the plane with a cooler, I now have a job (with the same company) that I enjoy, I am in love with my husband more today than I was the day I married him (stop rolling your eyes, it’s true), and I love myself. That’s the most important part. I love me. Because I finally love myself, I have found that I am happier and all around nicer to the people that mean the most to me (mainly my mom, dad, sister, brother, and husband that had to deal with me).

But I’m not done yet………..I’m still creating myself. I have new goals. I am pushing myself harder. I am eating cleaner. I am drinking so much water that my pee is nearly clear (I probably should’ve left that part out). 🙂 I am still a work in progress, under construction, creating myself, however you want to put it.

Today marked Day 1 Week 1 of the Get in Shape Girl’s 12 week bikini guide and I’ve done enough push ups, pull ups, and burpees that my husband had to ask if I showered in my gym clothes (I did not, mind you). https://beafitfox.wordpress.com/2012/07/22/my-starting-stats-photos-and-the-winner-winner-chicken-dinner/

I encourage you to ask yourself what you want. Ask yourself who you want to be and do it. Stop making your job, your family, your stress, your “I can’t change the way I look because it’s in my genes and I am just built that way” thoughts your excuses, and make the change today.

I know you can, heck I am sure your friends and your family know you can but do you? Do you KNOW, do you BELIEVE that you can do it? It starts there and never stops. You will be a constant, beautiful creation.

As always, eat clean, pump some iron, and be a Fit Fox!

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16 thoughts on “Creating Yourself

  1. Farrah Johnson on said:

    I can totally relate to this whole post! Thanks for sharing your journey. 🙂 Sometimes we feel so alone but there are so many others going through the same issues!

  2. Nelda Hicks on said:

    Good article Amanda. I think you look great now!

  3. Nicole on said:

    LOVE THIS!! I’m so happy to see that others feel the same way that I do! I recently fell off the wagon with my diet and workout plan and hate the way it has made me look and feel. I have restartedy journey and hopefully with some support and hard work I can get to a place that I love my body!
    Keep up the good work!!!

  4. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you’re such an inspiration!! 🙂 I can definitely relate to your journey, I graduated with a BA in Exercise Science and Premedical Biology and over these busy years I attributes my poor health habits to my chaotic schedule. It truly is the WORST feeling in the world to be educated to help others with things you have not even been able to help yourself with!! I am starting my uphill battle to a newer, happier and more pleasant me-both for myself and my family and friends. I look forward to one day being able to reach the state of self-love and respect that you have! Congratulations on embracing life and living it to the fullest!! 🙂

    • Thank you for sharing your thoughts and congrats on your BA! It is frustrating, heavens I know, but I am so proud of you for starting you uphill battle, your new journey! You are going to rock it! You have my support and encouragement all along the way!

  5. Christy on said:

    Great story Amanda! You are such an inspiration!

  6. Kelsey on said:

    I can definitly relate to your story! After my husband and I got married we starting trying to have children right away so I thought oh hey, whats the point i’ll gain weight when I get pregnant anyway. Well almost 2 years of trying and still no babies before I knew it I had gained 15 extra pounds. This put me at my heaviest and finally after seeing the photos from Christmas I had enough. Since then I’ve lost 35 pounds and feel fantastic. Thank you for sharing your story on bodyrock, you’re my motivation to keep at it today!

    • Hi Kelsey! Congrats on losing 35 lbs-AMAZING! I appreciate the kind words, too! Please keep in touch, too! Check out The Get In Shape Girl on facebook. I just started her 12 week Bikini Guide yesterday and already can’t feel my arms! 🙂 Good luck with the baby making too (we’ve been trying for a while as well and no babies yet)! This may be too much to share but my OB always says,”Keep your fingers crossed and your legs open!” 🙂

  7. Jennifer (Hayden) Blanton on said:

    I have been reading your posts and really love your philosophy regarding eating! I have felt blah the last year…and have been buying Jenny Craig meals…I take lots of vitamins and herbal supplements and shakes (I tried vega but just not crazy about the sweet taste…so I have one called shakeology that I am going to try out)…but since I love to cook…I really need to just start cooking clean meals! I may look into those cookbooks you mentioned…I cook wonderful meals but most are family recipes that probably don’t qualify as low fat or healthy…although much better than eating out. I bought some work out dvd’s (insanity and chaleen extreme) but I need to get motivated to do them!! So, girl…you are inspiring me!! I need to get off my butt and get moving!! 🙂 Way to go!!!

    • Thank you! I have heard of Shakeology and know that a lot of people like it. Did you try the Vega Oh Natural? It is just their plain flavor and mixes really well in my smoothies and oats. I would most definitely recommend the Eat Clean Diet cookbooks by Tosca Reno. Get them off of amazon.com; they are uber cheap (like $10!). My husband likes his steak and potatoes and I started slowly sneaking in some clean meals here and there and he loved it-they are just so flavorful! Good luck with Insanity-I haven’t tried it (I just love the weight room) but I have heard and SEEN great results from it on other people. Please feel free to holler if you need anything!

      • Jennifer (Hayden) Blanton on said:

        I bought the vega berry flavor…and I am using it occasionally…but not like I should. It has a taste that is just different…not horrible…but more of a sweet taste…which I would probably prefer the vega oh natural…I will check that out for sure!!! I looked on Amazon and will but a couple of the eat clean books!! thanks for all your suggestions! Love your blog!!! Keep it up!
        Jennifer

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